Hope dies last

I want to be…

March 18, 2008 · 24 Comments

…one of those people who has a photo of themselves and their significant other as a profile picture on Facebook. Except that if I did have a significant other, I’m not sure I’d do that.

…sure. Of myself, of my path, of my place.

…pursued, as I pursue. And courted, and wooed. As I do. And while I’m at it, I also want to be loved.

…spotted in a crowd from a distance.

…a muse. The object of a poem, the protagonist in a love story, the woman behind that great man.

…a better friend, daughter, sister, blogger, worker, aunt and a much better credit card payer.

…more flexible. (With my time and my body)

…appreciated, recognized, acknowledged and yes, sometimes, I’d even like to be worshiped. (I’m kidding.) (But, only slightly.)

…as cute as Froggy, as outspoken as Deutlich, as whimsical as Kristin, and as funny as Brandy and Tiff.

… as effortlessly stylish as Kate Moss. (Can someone explain to me the reasons this woman is being courted by the media as the newest style icon?)

…ravishing. Although, if I had to pick? I’d rather be ravished.

…able to say, “Everything will be alright” and actually mean it.

…able to say, “You’re right. I WILL meet a great guy one day” with a straight face.

…sleeping 8 hours a day out of physical tiredness, not emotional exhaustion.

…someones first thought in the fuzziness of morning and someones last in the bleariness of night.

What do you want to be?

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24 responses so far ↓

  • distracted spunk // March 18, 2008 at 7:47 pm

    Everything you just listed. Though I don’t think I’d ever do the significant other picture. It would be awfully nice to check the “In a relationship” box and have a name come up on the other side of it on Facebook. But I’m not entirely sure I’d do that either; I’m so private!

    I don’t know how I didn’t start reading you sooner. I love almost everything you write.

  • Stephanie // March 18, 2008 at 7:54 pm

    I love your new header photo! So springlike.

    I want to be someone who is easily able to save money. I want to be as thoughtful and poignant a writer as you. :)

  • brookem // March 18, 2008 at 8:13 pm

    What a good idea for a little meme. And you listed so many things I would say “Amen!” to. What do I want to be? Hmm… I want to be able to sleep sounder. I want to be snuggled in bed, on a cold day, with a good man. I want to be able to buy shoes as often as I want.

  • brookem // March 18, 2008 at 8:13 pm

    Oh, and I love your new header!

  • tiff // March 18, 2008 at 8:22 pm

    i want to be as sincere and eloquent as Hope!

    :) Thanks for the love dear. I do so love your header.

  • Angel // March 18, 2008 at 8:58 pm

    I want to be more stable and not be so afraid of where I’m going to be in 2 months, whether i will have a job, where am i going to be living…

    Stability is what i want!

  • Deutlich // March 18, 2008 at 9:07 pm

    Yeah, you pretty much hit it right on the nail with that post.

    Also? I sincerely thank you for the shout out.

    I really, really appreciate it.

  • Michelle and the City // March 18, 2008 at 9:23 pm

    i want to be someone that worries less. and is carefree all the time. how do people do that?

  • Hope // March 18, 2008 at 9:53 pm

    DS: Right back at you. I should have visited you ages ago.

    Steph: Save money? What’s that?

    Brookem: Snuggled in bed, on a cold day, with a good man? I say ‘AMEN’ to that one.

    Tiff: *Blushes* Aw, thanks!

    Angel: Stability, stability. I can’t believe I missed that one.

    Deutlich: You’re really, really welcome! ;)

    Michelle: I know! How do people do that?

  • Chris // March 18, 2008 at 11:44 pm

    I don’t think I’d ever do the “significant other on the profile picture” either. In an album or in the profile information? Sure. In the profile picture it strikes me as a bit… showy.

    What I want to be? There’s not enough space here for the long version I’m afraid :P The short version: More than the sum of my parts.

  • La // March 19, 2008 at 12:06 am

    I would like to be disgustingly rich. I know money doesn’t buy happiness, but it does buy shoes. A lot of shoes.

  • Froggy // March 19, 2008 at 1:42 am

    Awww… you are so sweet!! Thank you! :)

    Ditto on the third one.

    I wish I could be more open with my emotions in the real world. Not in an “oh I’m going to weep publicly over the latest episode of Grey’s” sort of way, but I wish I could be less closed-off.

    And it would be oddly fulfilling to be able to link to a Significant Other on the Book. Though I totally feel like an enormous dork for admitting that :)

  • QueenBee // March 19, 2008 at 2:17 am

    I want to be a social butterfly. I want to be done with The Hotel.

    I want be sleeping. Mmm…Sleeping.

  • libby // March 19, 2008 at 2:43 am

    well-versed, well-traveled, well-known, well-rounded. loved for who i am.

  • Queen // March 19, 2008 at 9:51 am

    i want to be someone:
    -who wont be forgotten when i no longer can be seen.
    -who doesnt take things so seriously, especially things that others will say to make me respond negatively. (people are sometimes just mean)
    -who stresses less
    -who is simply is recognised for what they are, nothing more and definately nothing less.

  • thenextfish // March 19, 2008 at 10:23 am

    I want to feel my stomach flip and my heart leap in my chest when I meet a boy, and

    I want to know where home is for me, and

    I want to look at other’s couply facebook pictures and feel the smug satisfaction of *choosing* not to do the same.

  • Lpeg // March 19, 2008 at 6:06 pm

    I want all of the above. Plus being able to check that box on facebook and have someone else’s name pop up :) [only because I've never gotten to do that!]

    And I want to be able to pay off my damn credit cards and save some money so I’m not in debt until 2027. arggg…

  • freeandflawed // March 19, 2008 at 6:15 pm

    This was such a beautiful post Hope :)

  • pin // March 20, 2008 at 1:49 pm

    i want to be carefree again.
    i couldnt say young and carefree coz im young.
    but then again young and carefree is what i want to be.young in the ’student’ sense of the word.
    i want to be someone doing something clever and creative with their lives.
    i, like queen, want to be seen when im no longer there.
    oh and i want to be a little less paranoid….for you know stuff….

  • kristin // March 20, 2008 at 3:57 pm

    seriously, you’re awesome! and thank you for the mention! :)

    isn’t it funny.. sometimes i really want to be the girl with the facebook relationship. but it must really suck when people have to break it off. that whole broken heart on the news feed. no thanks!

  • Princess Pointful // March 21, 2008 at 10:54 am

    I want my head to turn off at night and turn on in the morning.

  • Sara Jane // March 21, 2008 at 3:24 pm

    I want to be ravished too!

    I want to not sweat the small stuff and do what makes me happy…not so much worrying about how others feel about it.

  • cdp // March 21, 2008 at 5:35 pm

    Dude. Agyness Deyn = WTF ewwww.

    I also want to be ravished. kthxbai.

  • Peter // March 24, 2008 at 2:40 pm

    “…ravishing. Although, if I had to pick? I’d rather be ravished.”

    NEVER mutually exclusive.

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